one: 52 week
This week starts a new year and a new personal project for myself. Many people take part in the 365 days photo project and various such groups on the many social networks, last year I did the “Is 365 Impossible Project.” It turned out to be more challenging, yet somewhat therapeutic than I expected. So this year I decided on doing a 52 week project which will focus on me learning to be more comfortable in my skin. It’s my last year in my 30’s and I want to be to say I still have a lot of life to live.
Then, as I was getting dressed this morning I was thinking about writing this post. How am I to explain why I decided to start this project, not that I have to explain anything but I also don’t want people to think I enjoy taking self portraits. . What is the message behind the photos to come. Numerous thoughts came to mind but then one thought stood out, something I think we could all relate with.
Be your true self.
Be your true self…it’s what we all wish and encourage our children to be. To grow up and be who they are meant to be, yet what do we as parents do to ourselves? Many of us conform into the person we think others expect us to be. We don’t want to disappoint our families, friends, co-workers, the list goes on. So this year, I and going to try to be closer to who I feel I truly am. (not that I don’t already, because honestly this has been a process for me over the past few years).
If you’re like me, you hate being in photos. I see a photo of myself and pick it apart to the point I feel awful about who I am. In the above images I look and see all my insecurities I think negative thoughts (look at the bags under my eyes, my laugh lines.ugh, WTH! is that a turkey neck?, my body is thick, I’ll never be considered beautiful because society compares me to a skinny super model style body, long and lean and that’s what I’ll never be…I could go on and on.) Part of the being true to myself is learning to change those thoughts in my mind. I was never designed to be 100lbs, I was designed to be me. These are the insecurities I need to overcome so I can teach my own girls how to be true to themselves as they grow. It’s finding out who the real me is which makes me beautiful, I know that. It’s knowing those who love me, love me not only because of my outwardly appearance but rather because of the kind of person I am. In this project, I don’t plan to post only the photos that make me look perfect, because if only perfect photos were posted what would I have to learn? How is that being true to myself?
Hopefully, through the year, sharing my images and thoughts will help spark thoughts in you, the reader, to grow more into being your true self. Maybe you’ll never read this blog again, maybe you’ll share it with friends, maybe you will start your own journey. What ever you do I hope you do it with the purpose of being true to yourself.
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